Sorrow

Last night I cried. I cried long and I cried hard and I called Marc and sounded pathetic and told him so.

But he wasn-t there - because he's never there - and that was the message.

I love him so much but he's not there right now and hasn't really ever been since we broke up the first time.

I just need to be patient - which means I need a distraction. I think I might actually be able to ask people out now - knowing that I can't have Marc so I might as well get a nice piece of ass.

I took a personal day from school. I needed more sleep and didn't do my homework anyway. Maybe if I actually find a date I'll be happy enough to pass my classes.

Don't worry, Marc, you were right. We just need some time and some space. I'm still yours - body and soul.