Dreams

I had another "reconciliation with tpau" dream last night. At least this one was more realistic than the others. While it did have hand-holding, hugging, and kissing, it also had crying and yelling. Every day, not being with her breaks my heart, and every time I see her, it shatters me. This doesn't really come as any surprise to me, though. I walk through life feeling as though everyone's heart burns like a bonfire, except mine. Mine burns like the sun.

Oh friends, not these tones! Let us raise our voices in more pleasing and more joyful sounds!

Joy, fair spark of the gods,
Daughter of Elysium,
Drunk with fiery rapture, Goddess,
We approach thy shrine!

Thy magic reunites those
Whom stern custom has parted;
All men will become brothers
Under thy gentle wing.

May he who has had the fortune
To gain a true friend
And he who has won a noble wife
Join in our jubilation!

Yes, even if he calls but one soul
His own in all the world.
But he who has failed in this
Must steal away alone and in tears.

All the world's creatures
Draw joy from nature's breast;
Both the good and the evil
Follow her rose-strewn path.

She gave us kisses and wine
And a friend loyal unto death;
She gave lust for life to the lowliest,
And the Cherub stands before God.

Joyously, as his suns speed
Through Heaven's glorious order,
Hasten, Brothers, on your way,
Exulting as a knight in victory.

Be embraced, Millions!
Take this kiss for all the world!
Brothers, surely a loving Father
Dwells above the canopy of stars.

Do you sink before him, Millions?
World, do you sense your Creator?
Seek him then beyond the stars!
He must dwell beyond the stars.