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Hallucinations
Woo! Another session of my Earthdawn game done, and it went a lot better thanks to taking care of players' needs individually and quickly. As always, they've put off the plot points I had planned and forced me to invent new ones.
It recently came to my attention that the reason I remember things completely different from others may in fact be due to hallucinations. Sometimes I will remember an event happening and no one else will, or I will remember it completely differently. Now, a good deal of this may result from different perspectives and poor memory and all that, but last week, I saw a cat walking through my apartment. This cat was not real. Very provably so.
I've always been worried that I've been more than a little fucked in the head, as this is a lot more common among mathematicians. So while I can definately say that some of this can be attributed to hypochondriasm due to A Beatiful Mind, I'd kinda like to know if I see things that aren't there.
It recently came to my attention that the reason I remember things completely different from others may in fact be due to hallucinations. Sometimes I will remember an event happening and no one else will, or I will remember it completely differently. Now, a good deal of this may result from different perspectives and poor memory and all that, but last week, I saw a cat walking through my apartment. This cat was not real. Very provably so.
I've always been worried that I've been more than a little fucked in the head, as this is a lot more common among mathematicians. So while I can definately say that some of this can be attributed to hypochondriasm due to A Beatiful Mind, I'd kinda like to know if I see things that aren't there.
Evil math
Blown minds.
My experience has been it's what happens when the mathematical tendency to always regress to the mean, to reduce to simplest terms, crosses over to the verbal part of the brain. That just doesn't *work* with language. The word for the day is, "Conflate". ymmv, of course.
From Merriam-Webster:
Main Entry: con·flate
Pronunciation: k&n-'flAt
Function: transitive verb
Inflected Form(s): con·flat·ed; con·flat·ing
Etymology: Latin conflatus, past participle of conflare to blow together, fuse, from com- + flare to blow -- more at BLOW
Date: 1610
1 a : to bring together : FUSE b : CONFUSE
2 : to combine (as two readings of a text) into a composite whole