my brothers completely ignored me when I was little, often I played by myself, my dad didn't care about raising me, and the only person to give me love was my mother. Could I actually say, as a youngster, that my brothers/father *loved* me? Absolutely not. Actually I thought exactly the opposite. I thought, for a time, that no man would ever love me or accept me in any way shape or form.
Now that I am an adult, I concluded that my brothers nor my father ment to do any of these things. It was never their intention to make me feel this way. Somehow, people need to overcome their own feelings and be aware that no one sets out to be a bad parent or a bad sibling. But, you are a bad person if you can't see past these feelings that you have and come to the conslusion that no one wants to be a bad influence on other people, on you. MY MESSAGE TO YOU: GET OVER IT. WE ALL HAVE TO. EVERYONE GOES THROUGH SOME KIND OF EMOTIONAL TRAUMA. IT'S CALLED LIFE. YOU REALLY THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS FELT DEPRESSED BEFORE? THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL BECAUSE YOU MIGHT BE MADE FUN OF? I've been there, I just choose to move on. SO should you..............
People misconstrude idolization and acceptance as love. At school currently, I am looked down upon because I am not gay. I have less rights than gay people, I have had my freedom of speech taken away from me. I am feeling the effects of reverse discrimination. I feel my school is no longer safe for me, I am thinking about transfering. Will the school ever make my life more comfortable? No. They don't care about me because of their fear of being sued by someone who is gay.
Is there even a support group for me? Fuck no.
And suddenly I don't love you because of my FEELINGS and my OPINIONS? Suddenly you want to take my freedom of speech away too? I FEEL LOVED, NOPE.
I am sure your children would love me, and I am sure your wife will too. I can't wait until our children can play with eachother and be as close as we we are.
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Date: 2005-04-07 11:32 am (UTC)Now that I am an adult, I concluded that my brothers nor my father ment to do any of these things. It was never their intention to make me feel this way.
Somehow, people need to overcome their own feelings and be aware that no one sets out to be a bad parent or a bad sibling. But, you are a bad person if you can't see past these feelings that you have and come to the conslusion that no one wants to be a bad influence on other people, on you. MY MESSAGE TO YOU: GET OVER IT. WE ALL HAVE TO. EVERYONE GOES THROUGH SOME KIND OF EMOTIONAL TRAUMA. IT'S CALLED LIFE. YOU REALLY THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS FELT DEPRESSED BEFORE? THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL BECAUSE YOU MIGHT BE MADE FUN OF? I've been there, I just choose to move on. SO should you..............
People misconstrude idolization and acceptance as love. At school currently, I am looked down upon because I am not gay. I have less rights than gay people, I have had my freedom of speech taken away from me. I am feeling the effects of reverse discrimination. I feel my school is no longer safe for me, I am thinking about transfering. Will the school ever make my life more comfortable? No. They don't care about me because of their fear of being sued by someone who is gay.
Is there even a support group for me? Fuck no.
And suddenly I don't love you because of my FEELINGS and my OPINIONS? Suddenly you want to take my freedom of speech away too? I FEEL LOVED, NOPE.
I am sure your children would love me, and I am sure your wife will too. I can't wait until our children can play with eachother and be as close as we we are.