Do me a favor?

[etherial]

Tell me that I'll someday stop feeling betrayed. Someone tell me that I won't always feel used. I'm not sure I'll believe you, and I'm not sure it matters. I just need to hear it.

Comments

[doc-smiley.livejournal.com]

The hurt will fade.
*hug* see you friday.

[ultimatepsi.livejournal.com]

Things will get better.

[anitra.livejournal.com]

Normalcy will come back. It takes time and effort.

There are still folks who love and care about you.

[catya.livejournal.com]

You may well always feel those things. But it will hurt less over time.

[etherial.livejournal.com]

Jeez. Nobody follows instructions anymore! :p

[catya.livejournal.com]

Sorry, following instructions is not one of my strong points :)

Feel the pain.

[pulito.livejournal.com]

Someday, you will stop feeling betrayed. And then, after some time, you will probably feel betrayed again. And then after some time, you will stop feeling betrayed.

Betrayal is a very real risk in our search for love. But that search is critical to happiness, so we take the risk. You may feel powerless now, but you do have a choice: to continue to take that risk and seek love, or to erect walls and protect yourself from love. Either way, the betrayal teaches you something.

Of course I am observing from the outside looking in, but I think you are embracing the betrayal. Through your pain, I think you are remaining soft and open to love. This is an admirable thing, in my eyes. Many people grow angry and harden themselves and reject the betrayal and close themselves off, but I do not think you are doing this. It is natural and okay to feel the way you feel, for however long it takes, and I believe you will have more fulfilling relationships in the future because of the pain you are allowing yourself to feel now.

[buddhagrrl.livejournal.com]

I can think back 9, 10, even 14 years and certain past slights still sting when I focus on them. I don't feel used anymore, because it's so far gone that it doesn't matter if I was, and I only feel betrayed when I think about it actively or once in a while when I'm in a self-pitiful mood to begin with and I can't seem to prevent these thoughts from jumping into my brain.

Feeling betrayed or used is different than feeling rejected. I think rejected is so common that we all more or less get over it very easily, but feeling betrayed or used is more deeply humiliating, a harsher offense, and it's harder to let go of that. So I think it may continue to bubble it's ugly head, and its important to be ready for that but also know that that emotion and your subsequent reactive emotions are not what define you. You can experience it without being ridden by it, though that takes some practice and intentionality. It also takes facing it, which it sounds like you're doing.

[k1ttycat.livejournal.com]

You will probably never stop feeling betrayed and used. Everytime I remember the point in my life when my ex used me I feel stupid and weak. However, I also think about where I am now, and thank God that I am no longer in that situation. The hurt will fade, and you will think about it less and less. That's all I can promise since that's as far as I have gotten. I know you don't believe much in the way of sympathy from others, but how about empathy. *big hugs* See you tonight.

[shogunhb.livejournal.com]

You know what helps? Banging someone's mom.

[etherial.livejournal.com]

I know some MILFs...

[naweiner.livejournal.com]

Someday you'll stop feeling betrayed.

And someday you won't always feel used.