Tell me that I'll someday stop feeling betrayed. Someone tell me that I won't always feel used. I'm not sure I'll believe you, and I'm not sure it matters. I just need to hear it.
Someday, you will stop feeling betrayed. And then, after some time, you will probably feel betrayed again. And then after some time, you will stop feeling betrayed.
Betrayal is a very real risk in our search for love. But that search is critical to happiness, so we take the risk. You may feel powerless now, but you do have a choice: to continue to take that risk and seek love, or to erect walls and protect yourself from love. Either way, the betrayal teaches you something.
Of course I am observing from the outside looking in, but I think you are embracing the betrayal. Through your pain, I think you are remaining soft and open to love. This is an admirable thing, in my eyes. Many people grow angry and harden themselves and reject the betrayal and close themselves off, but I do not think you are doing this. It is natural and okay to feel the way you feel, for however long it takes, and I believe you will have more fulfilling relationships in the future because of the pain you are allowing yourself to feel now.
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Feel the pain.
Date: 2007-09-06 01:48 pm (UTC)Betrayal is a very real risk in our search for love. But that search is critical to happiness, so we take the risk. You may feel powerless now, but you do have a choice: to continue to take that risk and seek love, or to erect walls and protect yourself from love. Either way, the betrayal teaches you something.
Of course I am observing from the outside looking in, but I think you are embracing the betrayal. Through your pain, I think you are remaining soft and open to love. This is an admirable thing, in my eyes. Many people grow angry and harden themselves and reject the betrayal and close themselves off, but I do not think you are doing this. It is natural and okay to feel the way you feel, for however long it takes, and I believe you will have more fulfilling relationships in the future because of the pain you are allowing yourself to feel now.